Hamlet Solioquies

Now might I do it pat. Now he is a-praying. And now I’ll do ’t. And so he goes to heaven. And so am I revenged.—That would be scanned. A villain kills my father, and, for that, I, his sole son, do this same villain send To heaven. Oh, this is hire and salary, not revenge. He took my father grossly, full of bread, With all his crimes broad blown, as flush as May. And how his audit stands who knows save heaven? But in our circumstance and course of thought 'Tis heavy with him. And am I then revenged To take him in the purging of his soul When he is fit and seasoned for his passage? No. Up, sword, and know thou a more horrid hent. When he is drunk asleep, or in his rage, Or in th' incestuous pleasure of his bed, At game a-swearing, or about some act That has no relish of salvation in ’t— Then trip him, that his heels may kick at heaven, And that his soul may be as damned and black As hell, whereto it goes. My mother stays This physic but prolongs thy sickly days.

Hamlet realizes that by killing Claudius in prayer, he would go to heaven instead of hell where he belongs. Hamlet then remembers that by sending Claudius to heaven, he would be a bad son and not uphold the honor of his fathers own murder. By saying it is "hire and salary" he is saying that if Claudius goes to heaven, he will be paid for taking his father "grossly". With contemplation, Hamlet decides to kill Claudius in a wicked act, where Claudius's sins will be exposed before death. The best times Hamlet decides will be when Claudius is drunk, angry, or enjoying his "incestuous pleasure of his bed". This is a connection to the fact that his mother now sleeps with her dead husbands brother, and Hamlet's struggle with this fact. 

I believe Hamlet thinks he is trying to revenge his father's death, but the entire play gives a feeling that Hamlet is beginning to go mad with grief. At this point its been 4 months since his father has died. Not one person grieves the same way, but Hamlet has taken grief to the next level of revenge. I still have mixed feelings on weather he is justified in his actions or not, I will see as we continue with this play.